Saturday, 25 April 2015

Life is about celebrating the little things

My Week In Review

I've had a great week. Along with the many varied everyday occurrences in a regular week for me, I also had an interview about my mental health. And in it I was able to say with the utmost confidence that I've never been happier, or felt better in my self. Despite battles with low self worth over the years, I am now in a good place. A place where I'm comfortable with who I am, quirks and all.

So I'm celebrating the past week; the week in which I reflected on how far I've come.

I had some me-time

Sunday, 19 April 2015

"The way sadness works is one of the strange riddles of the world"

This week's Monday Motivation is a little different. I wanted to share with you a small collection of my favourite quotes; the ones I find the most inspiring / the ones I feel will help you get through the next week.

I have a quote book, where for years I have been adding sentences, paragraphs, entire poems by writers and historians and public speakers. I love reading through it and feeling motivated, connected and empowered.

Here are my hand-picked favourites from the collection:

No need to hurry. No need to sparkle. No need to be anybody but yourself. Virginia Woolf

Don’t follow your dreams; chase them.Richard Dumb

The way sadness works is one of the strange riddles of the world.Lemony Snicket

Nobody really cares if you’re miserable, so you might as well be happy.Cynthia Nelms

If you are going through hell, keep going. Winston Churchill

Never look back unless you are planning to go that way.Henry David Thoreau

I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on the earth. Then I ask myself the same question.Harun Yahya

Discovery exists not in seeking new lands but in seeing with new eyes.  – Marcel Proust

It is neither good or bad, but thinking makes it so.William Shakespeare

Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world.Albert Einstein

I am not afraid of storms, for I am learning how to sail my ship.Louisa May Alcott

What lie behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.Ralph Waldo Emerson

Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.Ralph Waldo Emerson

Have a great week.

Friday, 10 April 2015

I am More Than My Mental Illness

Four years ago this week, I went to my college doctor. I must have spent 45mins with her. It felt like forever.

After their assessment I was immediately brought to a counsellor. They told me I had depression, talked to me about my illness and booked me in for an appointment with the psychiatrist. The doctors' wrote me a prescription.

In those two hours spent in UCD's Health Centre my life changed.

Four years on from my diagnosis, it's strange to look back at the exhausted, quivering shell of a person that I was on that day. I was lost and hopeless. I was terrified of what was going on inside my own head. I spent most of my hour with the counsellor in tears, unable to get any words out.

I was recorded as being a suicide risk. But not imminently. 

But I went home that evening with my head feeling clear and calm for the first time that I could remember. I text my mum and told her about my diagnosis. I took my tablets and fell asleep almost immediately.

I was given a label that day - 'Depressed', 'Mentally Ill', 'Suicidal'.

Thursday, 2 April 2015

Things I've Learned This Week

- Twitter is not private. Be careful what you rant about. The BBC may just get in touch and ask for a live interview.

- Your gut instinct is 98% always right. Follow your gut.

- Binge watching something you enjoy is never a waste of time.

- Taking advice from Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt and lifting your chin during selfies leads to the best selfie you've ever taken.

- Watching people open the presents you bought them will always involve a heart-stopping moment of 'Crap, will they like it?'

- Reading the book and then seeing the film do not make the twists and turns any less emotional.

- Sleeping on the bus is the least refreshing nap you will ever take.

- A strong lipstick shade changes everything.

- Home-made Birthday Cards are still the best birthday cards.

- You may be a hoarder, but sometimes you should hoard more and not throw away that list that is now very important for you to find.

- You may still get anxiety about phone calls, but you can do it. It's okay to hate something, and you're strong enough to get through it.

- Chatting to fellow bloggers is so much fun. Always try and make time for that.

- You are more appreciated and valued than you know.

- You always totally deserve that Mocha. Have another Mocha.